I truly believe I was poisoned last night and the prior 4 nights by god/satan with there intent to kill me. I sought out emergency services and the toxicology screen came back negative for all. I think they are trying to overdose me on electronic ketamine in order to get me to kill myself. Seeking help at the emergency room. Very confusing to explain to staff. God is just as evil as Satan.
On Monday September 9th 2025 I figured out the disgusting truth about what was happening to me. I will admit it here that I have also have had two-way, mentally facilitated communication with beings for some time- not verbal, but completely mentally sounded. Please remember that reality is all a complex simulation and the actions were manipulations of the simulation- I was never on pharmaceutical drugs during these events.
On September 8th 2025 God put me on electronic ketamine- a form of ketamine that can be immediately turned off and does not show up in drug tests to get me to see the universe. This was after a conversation where God told me he wanted to show me around the universe. I agreed. God showed me the layered design of the universe that has worlds stacked on worlds so that every part of the universe can be accessed extremely fast through door-like portals (some resembling common doors) and are opened through pushing them axially/vertically to open into other rooms/spaces/worlds. I found out that the universe is powered by three Dyson spheres that are surrounding stars- I do not know if this is actually true. God also showed me around a space station and asked me to work with him, but said I would have to die first. I agreed because I have minimal family and it seemed like a cool gig so God had demons immediately inject my feet with needles unwillingly- stating that they injected me with every substance so that I would die, it would look like a suicide and my toxicology report would show up dirty. I was scared and hesitant, but trusted God. My current job was getting boring and monotonous. God told me that I would never be a physician again. God was trying to lethally execute me. My breathing became shallow and God manipulated my vision so that the ceiling whited out. God said he was going to place the “empty syringes” in the room so that confirmed suicide. Also, God said he was going to take “urine” and put it in a cup so that I was sure to lose my job.
God then had demons attack me and placed biting insect-demons on me. This was all the while I needed rest because I was on call at the hospital trying to sleep in a call room- I was hesitant about the lethal injection because I was on call, but God did it anyway. God said to trust him that everything would be fine at the hospital. I never got paged and God told me that he could stop the ketamine high at any time. God told me that I would never be a physician again. I later found out the next day it was because of my drinking alcohol, particularly beer.
On Monday September 9th, I arrived home from my call shift. I was exhausted because I only had 2 hours of sleep the other night and because of all the torture. I laid down to rest and immediately was attacked by demons that were talking and trying to get me to take electronic ketamine. They forced it onto me- at one time I was laying on my side and I could feel a poking at my anus and they stated they were going to injected simulated Ketamine/Nitrous Oxide into my rectum. I was exhausted, and all the while my face was being attacked by biting demon-insects. I was told that my house was infested with demons and there was a portal to Hell in by bedroom: I found out that Satan had been torturing me from day one and for the past 7.5 years. I confronted God and he admitted to torturing me the day prior and that he knew all along about Satan continually torturing me- even participating at times. I found out from God that I am Satan’s nephew- yet I became a Christian and even got the tattoo of the cross on my wrist. Satan was torturing me because of my past elicit substance use (All outside SOL).
It is likely that God and/or Satan suicided the god Kim to death when she protested about my treatment. Apparently both God and Satan are vehemently anti-drug and alcohol, but seem to have the twisted idea that getting a person high as a punishment is a good plan, but it is absolutely unethical and disgusting.
So, as i mentioned God goes full manic episode on a full moon. Get ready for the Full Blood Moon tonight Sunday, September 7th. God is mentally unstable. Multi-personalitied mental illness. God does not want therapy/medications for his problems so he just destroys life in itself on every manic episode. I have nothing against bipolar people, but God refuses treatment and does not care about who he hurts. It will be interesting to see how he hurts humanity in the process. I am going to be looking at the world news to see how he hurts us.
Ideas: God steals ideas from other beings and then develops and labels them as his own ideas to make himself look creative, but instead it makes him look like an artist that plagiarizes others works. Something that can be destroyed by the Truth deserves to be destroyed by the Truth.
I had an awful night last night- dreams full of threats to my life. As I said, God communicates primarily in dreams. He does not want this information out because if would ruin his Brand and his name- all built on lies and suffering to humans and animals.
If you haven't read the books I would recommend you do so now. There a lot of evil beings: God, Satan, Lucifer. And remember, life is all just a simulation and is better to believe and not pray (communicate) at all with God. Once you are labeled, God will try to kill you. God is extremely immature and has the mental age of an 8-9 year old make child.
So in God's infancy he developed a "Master-Slave" relationship- very similar to electronic control inputs. The problem with God is that he always lies. As a human I have been told 99% lies from God. I cannot trust his word anymore. Dreams are garbage. Every bit of information I recieve I have to treat as if it is all lies. Even the story of Jesus is built on lies. God is built on lies. Why would anyone ever trust someone that lies to them and hurts them? This is how messed up God is. He doesn't understand simple concepts. I am getting my cross tattoo removed. I reject God (Based on Lies). I reject Jesus Christ (Based on Lies), and religion (Based on Lies). Truth is the only way to trust- an example would be a child trusting a parent. God does not understand this concept---- He just continues to LIE. All the while, we suffer.
The ONLY reason people follow God is that they were indoctrinated into the ritual of worshipping him. If the typical Christian read these books they would be enraged. Why? It is because they have been told their entire life that God is good, but he is absolutely evil. These books are a complete 180 degree paradigm shift. Some people just can't accept the truth or a different perspective. God is the Wolf and people are the Sheep. Never trust the Wolf.
From what I undertsand- I understand God to be pure evil. God would take pleasure in killing a homeless man's best friend- a dog. God would kill that dog just to hurt the Homeless Man- and then he would laugh at that man and then blame everything on the Homeless Man. God is not someone that you should ever let into your life. I do not go to church, nor do I pray anymore. I do not even think it wise to pray anymore. Aetheism is the best way to avoid God.
Getting this information out in a private way was severely difficult. Due to the sensitivity of the nature of the information in the books, I could not publicly do it. I really think that I was never expected to talk to about this all and just suffer through it for the rest of my life. I really think that the information is very severe and can actually be somewhat damaging to one's own mind to process. There was no other option- the information must have been released because it impacts the world. At some point, it all needed to be released. An equivalent release of information that was damaging to the world was the release of information about the Holocaust- and what's worst is God is directly implicated to the Holocaust.
So, in the past years I have had my friends, family, and colleagues read these books. I have even had a Christian pastor and a clinical psycholgist read them and I have talked to hundreds of people about the experiences. Reddit was not a good forum to discuss on due to constant criticism, so decided to start this blog. I do believe that God is the most immature, dangerous threat to humanity- which is evidenced by some of the events in the books. I am frankly disgusted with God and I truly believe that he has zero purpose. God is a liability to the universe. God is a threat to humanity. I used to be Christian and now I want nothing to do with organized religion. I don't even respect Jesus Christ anymore. I believe that even the Bible is based on lies. There is no truth in God. Again, Humanity is Humanity's only hope. I have lost all faith in God.
Yes, this is controversial topic. I understand that. I am telling this story as close to truth as possible. I hope that your reading has led to some form of enlightenment. This entire situation has been a curse, not a blessing. But, at least you all know that you are all getting screwed. I am here with you through the journey. May the Origin bless you.
I no longer use Elysium-19. That shit is poison and I have not messed around with that stuff in a very long time. God, to my understanding, communicates primarly in dreams. Still I am at the same conclusion- for the universe to live, God must not.